Miss K has always been a sweet girl but lately she’s just been getting me in the gut with her golden heart. She gets that from her dad. I sometimes wonder if being her primary caretaker was the absolute best thing for her and when I hear her echoing positive words and sentiment that I say to her, then I think ok…maybe it’s good that she and I are together afterall. I’ll try not to cry while writing this.
1. “This was a great dinner.” I don’t know what it is, but I’ve been having a hard time getting on the same wavelength as the rest of the family and it seems like my husband and Miss K haven’t been enjoying the food I’ve been making lately. She has no idea how much it meant to me that she said those words. All I made was some vegan phyllo dough egg rolls, cut up and salted some cucumbers, bell peppers, and radishes, and warmed up some fried rice. I just want to know that she’s enjoying something I made that’s reasonably healthy for her.
2. “You can do it, Sia! I know you can!” I don’t even remember what Sia was trying to do but she was encouraging her sister without any prompting from me. I wasn’t even in the room, so I know it came from a pure place.
3. “I’m proud of you, mommy.” For what? “For being so good. And for playing candy crush saga.” I love this on so many levels.
4. I wasn’t sure how my kids would react when I unexpectedly turned on the hose and sprayed water. 50% chance of delight, 50% chance of freak out. So without realizing she was even listening, I said, “Let’s see if mama’s awesome or mean.” And bless her heart, she said “She’s AWESOME!!!”
5. “Don’t worry, Sia! It’s gonna be alright! Mommy’s coming back! She loves you!” Sometimes Super S flips out when I leave the room and my little bitty three year old took it upon herself to comfort her baby. And I really love that she told her that I loved her. Whether she’s just repeating the words or she feels it from my actions, I am just so incredibly thankful and relieved that she believes that I love them.
One other thing happened when I went to pick her up from school today. Super S sometimes gets really REALLY happy when she sees Miss K since they’ve been separated for a few hours (seriously, it’s like 3 hours and in that time Super S also takes a nap but maybe to her it feels like an eternity?). Today was one of those days. She tried jumping out of my arms so she could go and hug her big sister and squealed in delight. When I put her down, Karina hugged her and kissed her and instantly took a carrot from her lunch and tried feeding it to Super S. Those interactions just slay me.